现在是\(2019.4.7\)十点三十分，距离省选结束已经过去五个小时了。
我现在坐在床上写这篇文章。
这大概会是一辈子中一个难忘的时刻吧。
第一天\(10 + 50 + 75 = 135\)还不错，美中不足的是\(T1\)被卡进度卡掉了\(20\)分。
第二天考完估计\(30 + 60 + 30 = 120\)，最后变成了\(0+20+10=30\)。
\(T1\)被无限栈坑掉\(30\)分，\(T2\)被卡常卡掉\(40\)分，\(T3\)掉精度又掉了\(20\)分。
恐怕没人比我惨了。。。
就这样与省队失之交臂了。
周五晚上睡觉前我设想了无数种结果，但打死也没想到最后是因为这种原因失败了。
有点迷茫，未来的路充满了不确定。
我的耳边现在响起：

Learned our lessons through the tears
Make memories we knew would never fade
One day my father he told me
Son, don’t let this slip away
He took me in his arms, I heard him say
When you get older
Your wild heart will live for younger days
Think of me if ever you afraid
He said, one day you’ll leave this world behind
So live a life you will remember
My father told me when I was just a child
These are the nights that never die

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之后只有夏令营、NOI两次机会了。
我想我应该会接着走下去吧。因为：

First things first
I'm saying all the words inside my head
I'm fired up and tired of the way that things have been,
Second things second
Don't you tell me what you think that I can be
I'm the one at the sail, I'm the master of my sea
I was broken from a young age
Taking my sulking to the masses
Write down my poems for the few
That looked at me, took to me, shook to me, feeling me
Singing from heartache from the pain
Take up my message from the veins
Speaking my lesson from the brain
Seeing the beauty through the …
Pain!

成大事者必先苦其心志，我想大难之后必有后福。
就向李姐姐说的，这只是人生路上一次很小的磨难罢了。
下午从考场出来的那一刻，失望、愤怒、百感交集。
但当碰到迎面走来的\(cx\)、\(gxy\)时，我还是选择了一个笑容，一个玩笑。
我回忆从2017年开始的一切，大概

I've been reading books of old
The legends and the myths
Achilles and his gold
Hercules and his gifts
Spiderman's control
And Batman with his fists
And clearly I don't see myself upon that list
She said, where'd you wanna go
How much you wanna risk
I'm not looking for somebody
With some superhuman gifts
Some superhero
Some fairytale bliss
Just something I can turn to
Somebody I can kiss
I want something just like this

我好像已经离不开计算机这门学科了，它好像已经成为了我的一部分。
清北什么的好像突然不那么重要了。
我想如果可以，我一定会继续走下去。
直到最后。

送给所以省选失利或陷入困境的同学一个完美的"自杀方式"：
1.洗一个热水澡
2.泡一杯热牛奶，加点蜂蜜
3.把空调开到合适的温度。
4.喝下牛奶，躺到床上。
5.睁开眼看见太阳升起时就是你已经死了并且轮回啦，用新身份去重新生活吧！
嘘....只是孟婆婆搞错了，不小心让你的下一世和上一世有点像而已 (= =)。

现在是\(2017.4.7\)十一点，我要去睡觉了。
去你的昨天。
明天你好。
Tommorow Will Change .

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